Not the Desired One

Pick petals off a daisy stem
but we were never counting them
and wind will move them faithfully
across the land and over sea

Push the sand over our toes
slip through the fields where algae grows
the currents crash and we are free
I don’t want you to forget me

Sinking, I’m sinking
in quicksand of your pick
and all I keep thinking,
Will you kiss me in public?

New York air is thick with dirt
I trip and fall so fast it hurt
to see the girl I couldn’t be
I don’t want you to regret me

Falling I’m calling
for something abusive
I’m desperate, appalling
you’re far to elusive

I turn my head to see your face
there is no love about this place
I’m not that girl, I cannot be
I don’t want you to regret me

We chose, we tried, we traveled far
but what was real was left to scar
upon a clouded memory
I don’t want you to forget me

But I don’t want you to regret me

NS '09